Hi Angel, I got my academic Mojo back by getting a paper accepted at a top of the league conference and by, eventually, getting a place with a supa-dupa supervisor who really likes my research idea, and some of my writing - or at oeast a few paragraphs of it! The fact that I have always felt comfortable with, and happy doing, academic work and wanted it as a career helped me to push through and find it again. I think fighting them and wining helped me an awful lot, nowadays, with distance, it gives me a kind of hardbitten confidence - I know something of how the system, and some people work, and forewarned is fore-armed. I'm a fighter, so I have often been told: when my back is against the wall I come out fighting like an ally cat (even though at the time I felt suicidal). We all have our own ways of dealing with things, and perhaps this isn't yours, but I think the really important thing is to not let them take anything from you that you really want; if you wanted an academic career, then push for it, get published independently of the PhD, use the pressure positively and prove them wrong, stick two fingers up at them (and much worse if you feel like it - which I'm sure you do!). If what you wanted was a stable, interesting, reasonably well paid career, make sure you get that. I hope this makes sense; don't let them steal from you if you can possibly help it. Come here for support if you need it, I know the wreckage and hopelesseness this kind of situation can bring, and we're a supportive bunch. Also, ask for support from your friends and family, mine were life savers.