who else is spending their weekend in a library? am off to library... hopefully by looking through loads and loads of books i can actually figure things out. am with you Lara on that. i think a time comes when the drama has to be shut out til submission - whenever that is. just that friends don't get it and try to make your life hell.

yesterday i met another friend who had a friend over who seemed keen on knowing who i was. conversation goes...., "what do you do in your free time?" i can't remember the last time i thought of free time. so i said, "nothing i'd like to talk about on a friday night". i wasn't gonna say i spend my time in the library.... in the office or some place like that... and then start getting all these questions about my PhD. conversation went on and then came the question that just ruined the night - 'Are you boring?' I just looked at this guy and living for the moment, doing his 9-5 job which he claims to be boring and now he was trying to bring me down?

am working in this library. trying to learn a new theory. funny enough i've been having a productive day today. i've also had a bad day - clashing with friends. men!!!!!!! i want to stay very far away from them. all they do is bring you down- they never want to see a woman doing well for herself. ok, enough of my rant - you get the picture. i find more fulfillment in my work than in life these days.

i just wanted to put it all behind me and get on with my life. but hey, like you say... its not the end of the world.

i started my phd 2 weeks before i finished my masters. i don't wish i'd taken a break. but am planning to take a serious three months of doing nothing when it's all over.

cheers Lara,

am trying to come up with a draft of the final chapter, after taking yesterday off. over time am thinking that a September submission won't be possible with my supervisor taking ages to read my work and with the many corrections he comes up with. but we will see how things go. some positive thinking ey......

i just submitted my crap chapter. at least i've got it off my chest.

looks like you're making progress Lara. Well done

thanks Lara. keep going, you'll get there in to time. the beginning is the hardest part and you've already past that. will keep you posted on how am getting on.

thanks Lara for your encouragement. i cried myself to sleep yesterday. though it felt bad at the time, i feel like i've got all the pressure out of my system. its a new day and an opportunity to give that chapter another go and hand in tomorrow. i can then say i've done four draft chapters.

am feeling overwhelmed by the writing up. i feel that am incapable of coming up with a decent thesis and all i've done is crap. i feel like giving up. maybe this thing is beyond my ability. i've been really low all day. am on the verge of bursting into tears right now, but i have to keep it together to meet Wednesday's deadline. i feel like all i've done over the last couple of weeks is crap and can't bear another supervisor meeting where my work will be trashed.

in which country are you Lorna?

i managed to do a lot more words, but the polishing is the hardest bit. we'll see how it goes. fingers crossed. i have to hand in next week. am off for the day. pretty tired.

i seem to be doing well today. over 1,500 words of lit so far. worked for 3 hours 11am to 2pm.

well done S! so proud of you.

wonder what happened to S.