Well considering Terik didn't post on this thread again since July 2005, he/she either topped themselves, or didn't really mean it or managed to get a Phd place.
Wanting to kill yourself because you cannot get a Phd just indicates underlying problems. We can't always have everything the way we want, thats life and before anyone starts, I speak from experience. You learn from things that happen and then move on. I would have suggested counseling.