yeh i do...its just that i cant be bothered...i seem to have lost a lot of motivation for this phd.

254 words done :-(
i hate it when u have to reference... i hate academia - i need a whisky - unfortunatly my milk and grapes will have to do as i need to go shopping. I need to buy loo rolls as well...

this is boring

i'm only a first year :-( only just 4 months in :-(
i usually get guidance but i jst got a text msg from supervisor telling me to do it cos she was busy.

I WAS coooool. it was sandwiches and fruit.

HELP.... IVE NOT STARTED...I KNOW NOTHING... HELP. CAN I DO IT?!?!?!?! I NEED A BEER.

whats a working lunch and how do i deal with one? I have to go 2morrow but i dont know wtf it is or what i have to do ... i know that there are lots of profs etc,... TIPS?!?!?!

cheers mate. Its a long story but basically my second supervisor (who hasnt completed her phd yet) makes me look really stupid in front of my first supervisor... when we are on our own she is really nice but then she gets really competitive with her ideas and stuff. She always down plays my shite.. i know i am nothing in front of those 2 btu ... ARGH I AM going MAD. its like i am in competition with my supervisor!!

i just want to do my phd but it seems i am being used as a pawn for academic politics...I was so angry yesterday. My supervisor amde me feel tiny in front of my other supervisor. I AM SO ANGRY. i cudnt sleep cos of that anger.

i love my topic but u will get bored after constant work in the same area...
i worked during xmas cos i wasnt tired or n e thign and didnt need a break - BUT now i need a friggin break and i have a massive workload!

yeh... i mean they dotn really understand..its jst that my life seems to be on it at the momnet. its like i am socialising with the people, socialising with the specialist community, reading about it, thats all n e 1 ever talks to me about and its all i seem to think about. Its driving me mad really...i dont think n e 1 else is involved as i am ... they take it seriously...i mean so do i - bt i still treat it quite fun. Argh. Its only 4 months in!

i mean i love it to bits and am glad that i am diong it etc. But I jst get angry at it all teh time...my enthusiasm has gone!!!! i AM JST BORED!!! I NEED A HOLIDAY!!!!

started tihs phd in october,... i am jst so bored of it now... arhg i have taken breaks etc but i am jst so sick of it.

i dont mind working at weekends..infact this is the one weekend i have had off!!! And getting something the day before a deadline isnt fun...

well after all that. I bascially woke up at a stupid hour and did the minimum of what she told me. I wrote that i was unable to check my emails the evening before and i feel bad that i cud do nothing to help her earlier.
She replied saying: u have done everytihjng i have asked u to do so dont worry. ETC.
And ive got funding to go to texas.
The thing is - i hope that this is a message to her that although we got on very well... i do have alife at weekends.