also i think i was suffereing from ambivalence, for those that have the book: page 86.

Joan Bolker writes:

"it is absolutely possible to want very much to write your dissertation and also to want very much not to, and if the forces are just about equal, you will end up in the seasaw position with a lot of tension and no motion".

"most of us are ambivalent about the important ...events in our lives: getting married, having children, being in love or taking the sort of major leap forward professionally that earning a doctorate constinutes. You can't banish mixed feelings by denying them....."

*clocks out*

total productive time today: 1 hour and 10 minutes.
total words (*verbatim notes*) on cluster analysis = 894 words.

I found a great aricle on the internet that is explaining it in basic terms , so feeling a little less frightened now.

have *parked* on the downhill slope and will continue tommorow....

goodnight.

i basically was just going to work for only 15 minutes, but actually got into it, and kept setting *new* 15 minute egg timers on the eggtimer website.. so feeling abit better now that i did *something* today.

Hi all,

Sorry i haven't posted for a while either only have been ill with a virus, hence spent most of last week in bed! Anyway feeling better now and am going to forget last week and try and get on with some work this week (only have 4 weeks left to meet my deadline!). Anyway, todays aims:

Sort out all my figures for chapters 3,4,5 and 6.

Lara: Great to hear from you and don't you worry about last week either, that's in the past and sometimes it is good to have a few days off as you come back more refreshed!

Hope everyone has a great week!

morning. I took last week off and sadly it was not as relaxing as i had hoped. My gran is very ill and doesnt look like she will make it to my baby is born. But i did get the nursery pretty well sorted and husband got the garden well on its way and I tried to sleep some and visted my family lots. So today back to it - dont really know how much work i will get done in next while with all this going on. But i need to try.
So aims for today:
1. Finish key text for ch2
2. scan through some of new book for this chapter (I have to work tomorrow so wont get much time so this aim is to be finished tomorrow)

Hope everyone is well and ready to go again on a monday morning! Have a productive day and week.

Hi Tractorgirl, thanks

and sorry to hear you got ill. glad you are feeling better now. yep you're right lets just forget about last week and move forward
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celesmai, i am so sorry to hear about your Gran I hope God willing she does get to see your baby. it must be such an emotional and stressful time for you, and hard to concentrate. that's good that you are trying but it's understandable in such a stressful atmosphere in not being able to concentrate.
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my aims:
1. read and write notes on R cluster analysis (google articles).
2. R cluster analysis of 18 patients.

Hi All,

Celesmai : I'm really sorry to hear your gran is ill. My thoughts are with you through what must be a really difficult time. Try to stay strong and make sure you are looking after yourself. It might sound like a silly thing to say but when my grandad was really ill and i was trying to be strong for my mum and dad i couldn't eat or sleep and these are so important.

Lara: Hope you have had a good day today. Your posts are so encouraging and you are right that we should forget last week. It certainly sounds like both of us had a rubbish week!!
Anyway, as i am still not 100 % i am finishing for today. I managed to complete my aims!!!!!! Hopefully it will continue all week (fingers crossed!!) Hope everyone has a great evening and see you all tomorrow!!!!

tractorgirl, sorry to hear you're still not 100% - hope you get better real soon! try to take it easy the next few days until you're fully recovered.

well done on getting all your figures/aims done!! that is really excellent!

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well i took the longest nap today! so felt guilty so worked late tonight.
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*clocking out*

total "productive time" = 2 hours and 15 minutes
total words verbatim notes on R cluster analysis = 4901 words. starting to understand now about cluster analysis. and i think i might be ready to start analysis my data tommorow. i just need to read a few more web pages on R cluster analysis and then start analysing my data and being able to interpret it and explain it hopefully!! hoping all the reading and note taking has sunked into my brain.

you can tell i am tired, my grammer is atrocious!

Thanks tractorgirl for saying that you find my posts encouarging. it's nice to have you in the same boat as me! see you tommorow! i mean later on today.

Hi Everyone,

Another day, another dollar as they say!!!! Hope everyone had a good day yesterday. Well done Lara for tackling your stats, you are doing so well. Keep going and before you know it you will have it finished. Your doing so well.
As for me, aims for today:

Chapter 6 (changes and corrections - all day)

Have a great day!!

morning guys. Yesterday I didnt quite get aims finished so for today ( I have to work for a while too) my aims are:
1. finish notes
2. book - scan read
Hope you all have a good and productive day

Thanks for the words of advice tractorgirl. You are right its hard to look after myself but with the baby I really need to so trying hard. Actually slept quite well last night which makes a change!

Thanks tractorgirl! you're posts always cheer me up and encourage me! you are like sunshine breaking through on a rainy cloudy day


good luck celesmai, that's good you had a good night sleep.

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my aims:

1. finish reading articles on R cluster analysis.
2. R cluster analysis on patients 1-16.

yeah aims met for today! Going to my first antenatal class tonight. Hope all is going well - keep going we are getting there slowly but surely! Til tomorrow

Hi everyone!

Well, i am back eating my beloved chocolate so i must be feeling fully better now!! As for the aims, the chocolate was defintely needed as i haven't quite met my aims. What are i talking about!1 Haven't quite met them means i have hardly touched the surface!!! Anyway, i am going to re-evaluate my aims, maybe i was being a little unrealistic! Anyway, at least i did start chapter 6! Oh well, will come back again tomorrow, and keep going with it! New aims = aim to get chapter 6 finished by Friday!!!

Also,

Celesmai, great news about meeting your aims for the day, well done Also, hope you have a wonderful time at your first antenatal class, how exciting!! Hope it goes really well.

Lara : hope your day has gone well, and you are the one who always cheers me up too!!! your posts give me a lot of encouragement so thanks ever so much.
See everyone tomorrow!!!