yah my supervisor told me off for using my papers to write two chapters of my phd, even though i rewrote the papers in my "own words" . he still got the impression i just copied pasted! so i have to change it even MORE which is annoying. its like doing the work twice! i sometimes think it would have been better to have written the thesis chapters FIRST! even though my supervisor wanted me to write the papers first.

*sorry i'm half asleep, correction. thats meant to be graduate STUDENT not tutor lol

yeh!!! another diary. i love reading other peoples writing diary, i find it comforting

wow well done you, sounds like you've done loads!!! and you're nearly finished!

what you're experiencing is what Joan Bolker describes as hitting the wall.

she quotes to say that on more than one occassion she's heard a graduate tutor that has only 5% left of writing to do, say "i've decided not to continue with this project".

i totally sympathetise with the not sleeping well and feeling tired all the time. i am always tired, and i have no energy. feel low at times aswell.
i understand.

diary and this forum, and the accountability thread started by Antropologa, are a great help!

that's really great your supervisor is happy with your writing quality. sounds like you're doing so well good luck!! i look forward to hearing your writing progress and your updates

aim 2 chapter 2 methods : summary/outline: completed.

debating whether to call it a night now or not.. feeling tired.

celesmai, getting through 1000 words is great!

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Anthro, glad to hear you had a nice holiday! we missed you!!
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I ended up taking a 3 hour break lol.

just finished aim no#1. completed a detailed thesis map summary of my introduction chapter

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now going to do a summary of chapter 2: methods.

*taking a break now*
clocked in about 2 hours of work on the thesis map, still on the introduction chapter. going to have some dinner and return to it later on in the evening.

hmmm this thesis map/summary is going to take quite some time! need to break it down.

Thesis map Aims:

1. introduction chapter
2. methods chapter
3. chapter 3 results
4 chapter 4 results
5. chapter 5 results
6 chapter 6 results
7 chapter 7 conclusion

most likely wont get it all done today, but will try to get as much done today.

my aims:

1. produce a thesis map:

outline of what i have in each chapter/paragraph in point form (just a couple of words of a short sentence) of what data/idea is presented in each paragraph.

one sentence for each paragraph and what figures/data i am presenting. abit like my table of contents but with more specific paragraph by paragraph outline.

2. include *additional analysis* that i can do for the thesis.

3. figure out what a pairwise comparison is and figure out how to do it. (i am so crap at statistics. i really dont understand statistics at all)

but now i am thinking it in a more different way. the more they critisise me and give me negative attitude and feedback, the more it will help me in the long run. sure it's not nice, and its hard to keep getting up after being knocked down time and time again. but in their "own " way they are "trying to help" me.

no point at this stage, trying to make myself look good. but just admit to my failings and where i am having trouble and admit if i dont understand something and need further help. i was always afraid to ask for help, because i was always told to figure it out on my own. but when i did, it usually took a long time or i got it wrong. like statisics, i have no idea about statistics at all.

i've got nothing to lose. try my best, that's all i can do. and admit my failings and where i am having trouble, and things that i dont understsand. accept their crisitisms graciously and just implement them.

Sillybilly, lol I know, they are really busy, so she suggested a thesis map will save them time and quickly give me feedback instead of having the "mammoth" task of reading my 1st draft. lol i think i have just become nochalent now of all the negativity they keep spewing towards me. i'm just gonna try my best. i am now looking on the flip side. like Dale Carnegie says, see it from their points of view..

on the flip slide - they could easily, (because they are not my "official" supervisors and get nothing out of helping me with my thesis, ie they get no points or whatever), just say, "yah do whatever, submit your thesis, what you think is best, good luck". and just not helped me. even though they are helping me albeit begrudigly, because they *have* to. they are still helping me. even though it doesnt feel nice and encouraging, but i just have to endure it.

Hey Celesmai and Sillybilly! good luck with your aims today.

late start for me. couldnt sleep last night. finally went to bed at 6am. i think cause i was feeling abit under the weather and stressed.
but feeling better today.

but late start for me today.

i feel i cant get started, until i log in and detail my aims. even though i already inputted my aims before i went to bed. i know i'm weird lol.

Tractorgirl, we should call our club "bit by bit" BBB lol
how's your writing coming along?

Thanks Olivia!! That is really nice to hear that you get inspiration from my diary. thank you for your kind words :) and you're so right,that is a very good saying, hard work gets us there in the end.

Hi Tractorgirl, thank you! I took some medicine yesterday, and feel better today. I agree, its nice to have company with our new deadline! and you're very welcome, you are more than welcome to share your feelings anytime! and you were right, it did make me feel better that i was not alone in feeling how i felt. yep, you're right, just bit by bit! hope you're well today.

Hi cakegirl, nice to hear from you! we missed you! Thank you so much for saying that you think i've made progress, that's really good to hear and encouraging :) yes, i will take a break at least once a week thanks again!

i think you should consider all options. and sounds like you are doing something proactive and productive , following Olivias suggestion from that book. so that is great!!

if you believe you can do a phd, then go for it! prove them wrong!

sorry if i sounded harsh, i just dont want your sup to take advantage of you, you have every right to put your phd thesis as your first and only priority., its perfectly natural to only want to concentrate on your thesis, as you have set your deadline as 31st of august.