oh i hadn't read pc geek's earlier message about the pram comment

thanks PC geek., i appreciate your kind message, and everyone else that's helped me too today.

thank you to everyones advice and words of encouragement, i really appreciate it.

and i am sorry i have been so emotional. i just really needed to talk about it with you guys, cause you're the only one that really understand what it's like.

i am gonna take a break. and then calmly write an email to my supervisor

1) explaining exactly what i have been doing the past year and the year during my RA job.

2) write a detailed map of my thesis.

3) tell him what i have done.

4) and deadlines i have set myself and a timeplan.

thanks everyone. i couldn't have gotten through this with you all. i just wish i knew about this forum all those years i was suffering in silence. and didnt tell anyone.

pamepelmouse, your message was not harsh at all. i think olivia is referring to MM's message.

thanks olivia. you really put into words how i felt when i read MM comment.

if it wasnt for this forum and for members like you, i would have quit.

im too upset right now, to write anymore, but i want to say thank you to following members:

pamplemousse

avalon68

and especially olivia.

MM, yes i am unstable. very emotionally unstable. but that's me. i may not be as strong emotionally as you. i admit it. but this forum has helped me so much, to stick with my phd. and i will not leave this forum, or stop posting here, because i dont have anyone else to talk to. and although it might seem as incoherent ramblings of a mad person. i just have to let it out. i appreciate what you're trying to say. and i only have myself to blame, for opening up, because when a person does so, it invites others to judge them and offer critisism. i understand your only trying to help.

erm. i dont know. i emailed the graduate officer, asking her if she knows anyone i can talk to in confidence.

the problem is, my phd is registered at uni A. but my supervisor and lab moved to Uni B. so i just feel lost.

but thats good advice. thanks

thanks avalon for your message, i really appreciate it.

he hates that. he only sees people by appointment, and it will piss him off, cause he has a grant deadline.

but you're right.

i will write a detailed plan and email it to him by the end of the day.

i've just been crying and i'm an emotional wreck.

doing a phd. it's just not worth it. not worth it, psychologicaly and emotionally. i have lost all passion that i had for science.

and now i have to waste a day writing to my supervisor, detailing him what i have done. and explaining my so called productivity.


i might aswell just do it today. write a detailed map of my thesis.

i should never have done a phd.

i did it. i told the graduate officer. of the current situation.

i need to keep my uni in the picture, so they know exactly why the forms have not been sent in yet.

now i will compose an email to my supervisor and bore him to tears telling him exactly what i have been doing.

my phd thesis, will be crap, and i will fail. so might aswell save everyone the hassle and quit now.

he's right. i dont have the intellect to pass my phd. i just cant do it. i should never have done a phd. i'm just a dissapointment. and have no business calling myself a phd student.

phds are for people that are clever. i'm not. so i quit

i'm telling my university, exactly what he wrote. i dont give a damn anymore. i have to look out for myself. because they will fail me, if i dont send off the forms asap. and they need to know why there's a delay.

he obviously wants me to quit, so he doesnt waste time helping me, because he gets nothing from me getting a phd or failing.

so might aswell save everyone the bother, and just quit.

what;s the point

i might as well just give up. and fail by default.