what does he want?

does he want a freakin daily account of what i've been doing every single day.

i have a good mind to tell him, where exactly my productivity went, on the so called time off i had, i spent working on my 1st paper and last year i spent on the 2nd paper

i dont give a s*** anymore. im gonna email him, and tell him exactly what i have been doing!!

so you think i should email back my supervisor, and tell him exactly what i have done and what not.

seriously, does he think im just sitting her twiddling my thumbs!


i cant believe this. he was the one that said write the papers first it will help with your thesis. and now hes like, i dont think you can write your thesis. he said, i would be able to write my thesis based on the papers

then why the f**** did i bother writing those papers. if it meant i would fail my phd!

but what if by then its too late?

i have to submit my examination forms really quickly?

you think i shouldnt tell QMUL yet?

i want to tell them, so they have an idea why my forms are being delayed.

i dont know what to do

do i tell my univiersity what an arse my supervisor is being

or do i wait another week and hope i can prove to him i can do it

but then my uni will be like, why havent you sent the forms, and i might end up failing, cause the exam forms weren't sent

what shall i do??

shall i ask if i can speak to someone in confidence at my university. ????

he just doesnt get it! if i DONT submit by september, i automatically FAIL!
if i submit a thesis, at least i have a chance , even its a slighly chance, that the examiners might give me a second chance

i have 3 months. i know i can do it.

im so angry right now.

i really think, he cannot be bothered to help me with my thesis, because it will take time away because he's so busy, and he gets nothing from me passing my phd, because im not his official student.

oh this is such a mess. i have a good mind to say. you know what, f**** off, and i need your help, to read my thesis, i will write it my self, and let the examiners fail me, and i'll go to my uni and tell them exactly what you said!
im so angry

its like wtf!!!! he told me to write two papers so they would help me write my thesis, and now i need his help, its like "oh its too much work for us"

im so livid, i can hardly type. my hands are shaking

i think i should contact my university. they should be aware of the situation.

i'm gonna cry

what do i do?

my supervisor is draggging his heels! and my graduate tutor at my university, is telling me to send the forms ASAP!! because they take 4 months to clear

and if i dont submit by september, they will terminate my registration!!!!!!!!!!!

do you think i should tell my graduate tutor, of the situation with my supervisor, and how they are dragging their heels????/

i have a good mind, to go to my university, and ask them to help me and that i am having trouble with my supervisor.

its not that i havent been working on my thesis at all. i have been, just slowly, and i have rough drafts.

what shall i do? wait a week ? and see what they say at the meeting, but time is ticking by.

We are certainly not prepared to take this any further, in particular by contacting our peers to ask them to take on the task of examining you, until we are satisfied that once the process has started, you will complete it.

I'm sorry if this sounds a bit harsh, but it's really up to you to prove that you are going to do what you say you will.

I cannot meet this week as I have a grant deadline. But anyway, that will give you time to get your plan together.

It needs to have your whole thesis mapped out, with a summary of each section, what you plan to write and what results you plan to present and discuss. **** and I will need to think about your plan and discuss it before meeting with you

Regards *****

Just got a reply back from my supervisor.
he wrote:

Dear Lara.,

Thanks for the forms- but I really must reiterate that first and foremost ***** and I need to see your PhD plan and evaluate that you can and are going to write up your work for a PhD.

It's a lot of work for ***** and I to organise examiners and then commit to the endless hours going through your thesis.

It's a year since you left and still I have seen no evidence that you will achieve this.

*clocks in*

Just finished part 1 (out of 3) of chapter 6, so I met my deadline
for today.

total words today = 6412 words (edited from one of my chapters from my mphil thesis)

now tommorow, i have to write the 2nd part, which is going to be hard, because I have no zero draft to work on, so writing from scratch.

(and goodnight Jojo)

*clocks out*

Hey Jojo, same here, it's always nice to hear from you too

I can imagine you must be stressed, when you're that close to your deadline, it's perfectly natural to feel anxious.

i think phd is the hardest thing we will ever do.

i know what you mean about publishing. but yeh, be careful that it doesnt take away time you could be spending on writing your thesis. but it seems like you have a good plan, that you will submit your first draft of your thesis to your supervisor and whilst you wait for feedback, you can work on your papers. sounds like a good plan.

good luck with tommorow, see you on the forum then, i'll be glad of the company, starting the second part of my chapter, just finished part 1.... me off to bed now. nitey nite.

yeh your right, i didnt know about my sup,. just found out a couple of days ago. yah, you're right. its too late now.

good idea about the card thing though to my friend. thanks.

just think how satisfied you will be tommorow when you email your sup the drafts! you've done so well, meeting your deadline

that's why i think i put off working on my thesis and only worked on papers and put 100% into the papers, cause they were always interested in seeing my work progress on the drafts, and i felt, that they were getting something out of the papers, but sort of like, oh thesis, what's in it for me. maybe its just me being paranoid. but thats how i felt.

okay maybe not an all nighter, as it will affect my work day tommorow, but until 4am.. and i find waking up before 11am so hard, when i got to bed at 4am. i need my 7-8 hours of sleep. i can't function otherwise.