Thank you, those are some very kind words. I will try to take them on board and relax. I'm sure you will do great!
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Just a quick one from me. Im a bit concerned. My supervisor as I have mentioned before is always busy. He is notoriously unreliable with getting things back to me. I've given him entire chapters and waited for any feedback and a month later he will send me 6 pages out of 60 with comments on them.

I have used all the comments I have been given, but when it came to handing in I ran out of time and couldn't afford to wait another month to hope to get more feedback. So when he called me telling me he probably wouldnt have time to look at any of my chapters apart from what he had done. I was horrified. But I pushed forward and did the best I could and got it handed in. Now I feel like Im sitting on a time bomb, wondering what I havent seen in my thesis that he would have. Im almost scared to let him read it knowing that he will find problems, and I will be able to do nothing about it.

I've cajoled and emailed him and I feel like I've done all I can at my end. My worries are probably very valid but I'm just wondering if you have any experience of this. A kind word or two would also be nice lol. Is this common? At the end of the day the buck stops with me in terms of the thesis I just cannot relax knowing its out there.

(sprout)

Thank you both. It is very odd, i kind of think Ive been Stockholmed. It is a very strange sensation.

Handed in the thesis today! How do I feel? Odd mainly. Still desperately stressed thought I would be relieved. I'm not though, im not happy with it so maybe thats why. Oh hopefully that will get better.

Thank you.
At the minute I cant seem to find an official rule, its chaos this end, rewriting my methodology because its rubbish although slightly late in the day...oh dear.

Hi all.

Am rapidly running out of time and doing all those things that should take two minutes but inevitably take an hour like fixing references etc, anyway I have diagrams that I have made in my thesis, and I also have pictures which I have taken and also others that are photographers. Can you tell me when I am labelling them figure this etc what do I put, are photos and diagrams called different things is it 'Photo 1' or 'figure 1' or 'diagram 1' its Harvard referencing style and I apologise if this is really obvious but my brain is a bit fried.

So essentially because im making little sense what am I calling my diagrams and photos and are they the same thing?

(could I be anymore unclear lol)

sorry all
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Im so so sooooo chuffed for you. Your message just gave me the boost I needed! I submit in 2 weeks (less prolly) and I have been fannying about so thank you. Im soooo pleased for you, I cant imagine that ever being me but you must be so utterly delighted and thrilled all that hard work worth every single second of it!!

Of course you will. The main thing I've found that has held back myself and others I know is that feeling of just not being good enough, thinking it is rubbish and that everyone will think so. Its not just cut yourself a break you're there because you are good enough.

hmmm interesting through the u she is doing her PhD at. Its in the South of Ireland, would that make a difference?

Good luck with the PhD, it can be very enjoyable don't get too stressed about it all its just a piece of writing. And don't believe the people who tell you they work 12 hours a day from their first day.
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Just to say, I wrote it in paragraphs... sorry about the fact it has refused to translate it...

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Well Im in my last two weeks. It isn't finished, but its not bad. Im feeling very calm about it, Im not sure why I always thought I would be clawing the ceiling at this point but Im not. I have a very relaxed supervisor who keeps telling me it doesnt have to be perfect, although he is also swamped with his own work so he has given a lot over to my second supervisor for comment as well (he read it all the first couple or three times). But can I throw this out, I think we know by this point what is good writing and what is rubbish, its lovely to get pointers but Im not too concerned.


Im not sure essentially what the purpose of this message is, maybe its a help to those a while off from submission. Dont panic, it'll be alright, you will know what is good and what is rubbish. You are always much harder on your own work than anyone else and that is the main point. Its a good thing that you are the toughest on your own work because when someone else gets it their view point will be different and I think that's why its good you run it past both supervisors, different eyes pick up different issues.


So back to a point, I'm feeling an odd kind of relief. It will be handed in soon (I will have a life) I've applied for some jobs, not lecturing ones, just some which pay well in academia and will allow me the time and flexibility to deal with vivas etc. Be kind to yourself all. You don't have to have the perfect post doc job there isnt a rush, by this point we have all had such a long period of hard work its quite nice to ease the foot from the pedal.


The other side of the fence is in sight!

Quick question all, my friend is currently doing his PhD at one institution and teaching at another. She lives near the institution she teaches at. She hasnt got any funding and is about to enter her second year, now she is finding it really hard going making ends meet. Does anyone know any funding bodies for film that either privately or through unis fund?

Thanks all.
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Frighteningly I have got a schedule which I was working to quite well until tiredness and assessments threw me off spectacularly. I agree that my first supervisor needs to be shaken into action and I think my second supervisor looking for schedules will do this. Im gonna have to get out my Joan Bolker again, and get writing.

I submit in Sept, and I am freaking out. Have been procrastinating wildly caught in a cycle of binge writing and then no writing and I just cant get out of it.

My supervisor although lovely is being really lax with reading things I submit to him, in fact he hasnt read any of my chapters I have submitted since Feb so I seem to get away with not doing anything, and now my second supervisor has asked me for my schedule so he can know when he has to read things. I just feel so stressed.

I almost forget everything I know when I take these writing breaks and it is even harder to get into it again. I am so stressed and Im so annoyed that I keep doing this to myself. If I were a doing a little bit every day kind of person it would be so much easier. Im just so stressed right now, I apologise for ranting I just can't seem to get my head back into this thesis.

Urgh I just feel like such a failure.

Liminal