It is not going well! I lost the string! Came back from a 6-weeks overseas trip and officebesty is gone, There is no one to wake me up in the morning, walk me to the office and listen to my everyday plan. I was so motiveted during my trip. But now Being jet lagged, I don't know how to come back on track. I need some one who can encourage me. Dating Jord is not helping. We are far apart and he lives in a different atmosphere. May be it's time to visit uni consouling! if I could wake up early.

I'm back! Maybe I write about my trip here and there on my Blog later but now I want to focus on what should be done:
By the end of this week:

Done 1. Move in (hard job)
Done 2. Sup Bday gift, a creative one??
Done just VC report has left 3. Finish all paper works regarding this trip (including report to VC)
Done just needed to be posted and submitted 4. All paperwork (visa+approval+ticket) for the conference
5. Email to Ank and rad (So I have to talk to Suppi about and think)
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I know, I know! I have a lot to do! Let's get into it!

I had a big journey so far! Being on a number(12) of flights, trains and buses between cities, staying more than 6 cities (stoping at even more ) for in two weeks! Should change my name to mathcopolo! :D
I gave two talks in two conferences, met important or interesting people and gain more life experience.
I'm planning to visit briefly two more universities. The bad thing is that I feel a bit less motivated. Not sure what the reason is? Is that because I am tired? Or maybe coz I have been away from work for a while? Or many the researcher I met all work on theoretical parts which sound boring to me!!

Any how, I don't have time to be unmotivated. Should motivate myself and get back on track!

1. CV
Done 2. Todo emails
3. More work on extremal?
Done 4. New idea

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Sep 24, wednesday, on conference site (at the middle of my trip)! I made it all successfully! All good now! :)

00:12 Sep 11 at office!

Rushing and stress defined my day today (Sep10). I'm very stressed. I'm scared. I have to leave in 5 hours. Wish had accepted it when BestyS offered to stay with me tonight! Feel it's too much for me to handle. I'm not ready. Don't know what I'm doing. Wish I was still a kid, dad doing everything for me I just enjoyed life. Strong, independent but the reality is I have fear in my heart. I don't know what I am doing. After all those effort can I just not go?

1. Wake up: 8:30 + a nice breaky + watching TV ..
2. 9:30 start packing ---> 12:30
3. walk to career centre


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To do before I leave:

1. Moving out + cleaning + officials + arranging my money back
2. Contact T to sell the fridge
3. packing clothes and stuffs + ducoment + office note ...
4. printing all my tickets
5. Slides
6. Checking hotel In W and in C

21:48, Sep 6, at office: Editing CV took the whole day. I went for a photo walk with some people along the lake. It is the best time of the year now. Those cherry and white blossoms and leaf to be soon buttons all over the trees are just stunning but it was a gloomy weather and that's what does not make me any happier. So I left the group earlier to have an afternoon nap and being feed by besty before I came back to the office. I decided to send my CV on Monday after I receive feedbacks from bro, besties and career centre. I'm though worried this delay might make Nat disappointed. I was ok this morning but now I feel a bit sad. It can not not totally blame it on the cloudy sky. It was also that I couldn't do that much work today. I mean I worked 8 hrs today but it was only on my CV and event couldn't send to to Nat. I made a big plan for the coming months but can I actually make that happen? Isn't that too late?What if I can not get the inter? I totally prefer it to a real job at this stage. I don't know I don't know. Should get my second slide done! I start tomorrow!

Done 1. 7:30 wake up + morning routine
Done 2. 8:00 walk to office
Done 3. 8:30 start work
4. Modify the literature on O-method (an obj is acc iff it is can-lab) on trello, tehsis and cof slide
Done 5. Edit the fist slide
Done 6. Resume (Editing)
Done 7. Photo-walk (at 2:00)
8. Second slides
9. Going through all todo emails

10. The new idea (just one more try on the proof: 1 hour + add them to the future section of thesis)
Done 11. One video or article on interviews


proving the new method ---> Done on Sep7 (now should mainly think around it that in which way it can be more useful)
notes on the last project
Apply G (learning interview techniques(tubing and reading+ practicing) + review alg + prgramming skills)

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Sep 7 Sun

Second slides
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Today I just rested, did shopping and proved the new idea

Although proving the new idea took me a couple of hours (at least 4) and sounds to be a big achievement, I feel sad again. I had this weird headache last nigh till today's afternoon. I worked two hard last week, from early morning (6-7AM) till late night. Had no rest! Not healthy physically and mentally.

Tomorrow I can go to the gym. There was a hight target I love to beat before my trip! Gosh I can do this sport every day. Simply love it!

This many things I should go through for G freaks me out! I don't think I have their basic requirements though I have the most important one and I know I am tribally good at it. And I don't want to give up. It is such an up rising thing in my life. So I should accept all bad and good things about it. All those stress and disappointments. It worth it!


Also stressed coz I did not worked on my second slide! oh God, I need a rest!

Even not finished my CV! I read more and tubed more! Found out what I wrote is crap, crap, crap! N couldn't you give me some more time!!!!


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Sep 8 Mon

Recreational leave 10 days
Second slides

23:41 Sep 8 at office:

Today I woke up around nine. went to Career centre. Waited an hour to meet consultant S. Then I met suppi. We discussed the new method and my proof. I wrote a test program. which I'm too busy to run this week.

I rewrote my CV. Quite happy with it now. Should take it for the last check to the career centre tomorrow.

Apart from my second slide, all is good!

I just need to do cleaning and moving out tomorrow (+last packing)! That probably takes my whole day!
Also go to the career centre
Should I have more time, I would work on the second slide!


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Sep 9 Tues
Just moving out + cleaning



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Sep 10 Wed

Last shoppings + packing notes and office supplys + ^^^ second slide ^^^^ + last packing + dinner out