My dark days started since Jan 2013 at Nepal. Full of enthusiasm pulled me to be back home and I did. Unfortunately or sadly, all my plan after completion of PhD degree started to fail and fragile. i applied for possible jobs relevant to my area of expertise as others do, but i only received regret messages for not being hired me. i keep on moving, trying to keep myself occupied in what ever way as possible. I started cursing loved ones and god for this status of mine, as of i could not think of any other reasons for my current state of mind. my brother and sister with family are performing so great every day with full of passion, love and income, which is the best part for all of us and specially to our super parents. I am finding hard to keep moving ahead, coz all my plans, expectations, passion, love, income is fading way and am losing my fate. i need to make loved ones be proud of me again and keep happy, but each day of my life is ruining everyone's around and not being able to support financially to our parents which i am suppose to be responsible. yes i can't hold long enough anymore with earning, its been 3 months i am being fired and still jobless. my sister got the job as she deserved, but myself being lost and a loser. I am sorry for hurting by any means to loved ones and well wishers.
only i can think about now is without job or work for earning, i don't exist at all and i am polluting the family bonding with my bad lucks and no contribution to the human kind. Seriously, please guide me to be rich in all sense; in fact i am losing my fate on me and i prefer to remain quiet; which is I guess the sign of abnormality.