And another all nighter. I don't want to. I hate it. But I have no choice.

Who else? Please respond. I don't want to be the only dork in the world staying awake until 5am.

And I begin to hate myself for always starting to work on this after 10pm. I'm going crazy. I need more Cooooooooooooofffffffeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I've got a conference paper to give tomorrow and because of other work I had to finish I am only just starting it now. I feel like I could just cry and am so tired yet know I have to at least attempt to do something. It all seems so overwhelming.

Hi Pamw.

I am sure your presentation will be great. What are you doing in terms of presentation, are you focussing on the slides or the content of the talk at the moment?

I just wrote 202 words in the last hour, but it's rubbish and I need to write 500 more before I go to bed to reach my self set target for today. But it's too complex for me as I begin to doubt my own abilities to do this. Every single sentence could potentially contradict statements made earlier. How is it even possible to control this vast body of text and to retain the overview???

I'm putting the slides together and then hope that they will jog my memory on what I want to say about each as I don't think I have the time or the energy to write out everything I want to say. I'm hoping that my presentation will come across better if I'm not actually reading everything from a script.

I usually do the same in presentations, the slides acting as orientation for the content and no further notes. I usually find it very useful to print out all slides as handout with six slides per page, and to spread them on the lectern in front of me whilst I talk. This helps to avoid turning around to look at the screen during the presentation and makes it easier to link between topics and slides.

Somehow I ended up in the kitchen preparing an extended midnight snack (Steak Diane with pasta) instead of working and despite my resentment of cooking. Arrgghh, now I'm even more tired. But I have to fight!

In total 399 words today. I call it a day. Tomorrow is a new one. Gonna watch TV now until the Caffeine intake let's me sleep.