Hi all
I'm not sure if anyone else has experienced this, but here goes.
I've struggled with anxiety for most of my PhD, but it's got bad when my supervisors put a lot of pressure and guilt on me to write up completely in 3 months. Basically, it all came to a head where I just wanted to submit, but they felt my thesis wasn't ready. I was given another 3 months (until end of March). However, in that time, feedback has been very slow, to the point of non-existence, and I felt that I've hardly anything to do other than try give myself feedback. In the meantime, I was stressing about money, and although I was offered a part time job (which I thought ideal), I was told not to take the opportunity.
I am still waiting on feedback from my primary supervisor, after literally running out of things I can do for my thesis. I have been offered another job, of which the PI would like me to start earlier (maybe end of Feb) but I have the feeling my supervisor will say no again.
I appreciate that a thesis is hard to write, but I feel like I am holding up my end of the bargain without my supervisor holding up his, but he's still preventing me from moving on; he wants me to finish ASAP without actually helping, and also stopping me from actually looking for a job
anyone else experienced this?
PS I have to say, that other than this situation, all my supervisors have been helpful and supportive, and really do try to look out for me and my health, but I just feel a bit suffocated and not at all productive to my end go; submitting and moving on in the next few weeks