I'm back here looking for sympathy if nothing else. I can't find any money - I've been sending out tonnes of e-mails and no-one's even replying anymore. I worked SO hard for my first that got me my PhD place, I feel like I've earned the right for some money to go to ONE conference (okay, I've been to two free conferences at home) - not more of a right than anyone else, but an EQUAL chance, which I don't feel I'm being given. Any physicists who know where to find money?