I dont know if this phd stuff is right for me. i love the research etc... i think i am good - i get invited to do talks, have publications but may be i just cant work in this controlled strucutre. I really feel like quiting. I have cried for 2 much over this. i DONT know how much more i can take.

Nothing is worth it if it's making you miserable. Any progress with sorting out your supervisory problems? From what you say, this seems to be the source of your misery. Hope something can be sorted out soon, meanwhile take care and try not to let it upset you (easier said than done, I know).

I dont know anymore... My first supervisor had a word with my second supervisor on friday and I dont know what happend. I have a research meeting with the supervisor i dont get on with on weds. I have to say that I am dreading it. It can be really isolating because sometimes when you try to describe how you are feeling to someone else they realyl dont see it as a big deal or why you feel the way you do. I guess its just got to that agrh point. I feel like giving in - doing what she says - get teh phd then go far away.

i think i may have solved the problem

how?

yeah, that's a really scary post eatingelephants!

Lol - i have a meeting with her 2morrow .... since the dreaded e-mails... i now have to see her face to face. And i am very scared... so watch this space...weapons maybe used in self-defense.

ok this isnt right for me

I dont know anymore - the thing is i just dont know what i want anymore

she was nice cos she had to be. She is ademant that her way of working is correct. I dont know anymore. She said that she is trying to push me - but to be honest she is pushing me away. We have decided on having one formal meeting and one informal meeting. This formality is just driving me insane.

yeh i am going to give her until my 9month report....
lets see what happens :s