at least for the moment--trying to take the frustrations of the last week or so and translate them into "what I have to say" in my writing ( in a focused, constructive, academic way). But I am writing about a rather B O R I N G and over-belaboured concept, and I am trying to express my ( academic) view about the reasons that the existing discussions all fall short ( in my opinion!). In short, getting back to the basics on my topic, from a fresh ( and recently frustrated) view--its giving new life to the writing, and so at least for the moment, I am engaged again, writing, feeling more energised and interested in my topic.