Hello all,
I have had in May my PhD viva...it went on pretty awful, and ended up in re-submission (for a PhD) with a new viva. After two months, I got the major changes from the external.
In the meantime, I wrote my first (research) book that is relevant with my PhD, more than 220.000 words and will be published on 2019.
However, I feel extremely sad and weak. Most of the times, I actually feel worthless and even suicidal thoughts come in mind.
I don't know if it's worth it to go for another viva. I feel DEVASTATED to say at least, and after all those months...