Hello everyone,
I wanted to write this to just see how everyone feels about quitting a phd program.
I am towards the end of my 1st year doing a phd in chemistry.
Lets say I have always wanted to do a phd, I even stopped my job to pursue it.
However it has turned out to be something that I dislike right from the start and this feeling has gotten worse over time and made even worse with my supervisor who always tells me I am stupid and doesnt support me at all.
I have come to the conclusion of accepting that for me to pursue my happiness I need to leave this phd and go back to my job which I did before.
On top of it I hate the topic of my phd, somehow before accepting this phd I read that you can go anyhow with your phd topic as you please as long you have a scholarship however that's not true, when the supervisor is set on a specific thing they is no flexibility in branching out. I honestly dont want to stay in academia when I finish my phd, it does not interest me at all.
So I have started applying for jobs and have a few interviews lined up, however I thought I should write this to see what everyone thinks.
I just feel trapped living here farway from my family, I feel like I left my six year relationship which was a very unhappy one before I started my phd to replace that with unhappiness from this phd.
I want to live my life to the fullest and not do it because everyone thinks its an amazing thing to do when they aint doing it.
I really enjoyed my masters and undergraduate, even when I was feeling down I always pushed through however that is not how I feel about my PhD at all. My heart has given up on this. I dont even want to go to the lab anymore.
I feel like am destined to be doing something else.