Hello,
i am currently finishing a phd in physics. I work in a very small group were i share a desk with my supervisor. From the beginning my supervisor treated me very bad, whatever i was doing he just found justification for hating me. It affected my relationships with some of the other member of the group. My supervisor is more like a project coordinator than a real scientist. He proposed me a research project that has not any scientific impact. He has not any competence in the scientific field and always keep developpign "collaborations" with external groups. The truth is that he has no real scientific expertise and uses his collaboration to do the job. I tried at the beginning to propose other way for doing my phd and from this time he just humiliated me at every single occasion, shouted at me, pretending that I was never doing the job. Actually he has no idea about what I was doing. I tried several time to discus with him scientific issues, but always he deviated to the subject and talked about some general ideas. Always obsessed by the form of things, never by the content. Plus, he was always talking politics which made me very incofortable.Last but not least, he had several antisemitic remarks like "I would have prefer ignoring that you are jew, so I wouldn't judge you according to that", "I thnink israeli people are nazis", (knowing he has german origins, it sounds odd...), "i don't understand why you have so many feast in your religion", "how can you keep eating kosher knowing it s all bullshit?".
I never reacted or told about this to anybody, I was afraid it would make the situation worse. And actually, I am pretty sure nobody would believe me. He just keep saying all the time that it is "so difficult" to work with me, that I am not polite, that I am not doing the job.
I have a very shy personnality and didn't manage to defend myself. Now I am very afraid about the impat of this Phd. There is no chance I would get any recommandation from him, and were I apply they ask for recommandations... Would you have any suggestions, do you think my career is dead? I am really depressed about this situation, and i know I should have left this group earlier but this is the situation. I have no any publication for the moment (I will defend with no publications...), but for my defense, it neither did the two previous phd students of this guy.
Thank you