Hi Artista,

I hope you will get better feeling than I do in the following weeks. Lets keep it up.(up)

God, you guys being so helpful. It gives me more confidence. Thanks so so much.

About the my English, I have asked my supervisor if I need to take extra class, but he seems very comfortable with my English and not really suggested me to spend time on it. I think my seriously problem so far is reading (writing probably comes after). So as your guys suggested, only one way to solve it: read more.

To Swetch, it really brings worse feeling of getting no idea after finish one book or one paper. hope it won't have same feeling after this beginning stage.

To Biddysbottom, congrats for your final completion. About this card thing, is this really helps? could you describe little bit more? maybe i can try too.

Afterwords, it makes me feeling much better, its common in first year of PhD, not my personal reason caused :P I will work hard on reading and reading. ....:-s

Sincerely thank you. I really give myself too much stresses. If its not my personal ability problem. that would be ok to deal as long as i pay enough effort to it. This is my second week of study actually, hope it will get better in next month. God bless me. Thanks again.

Guys,

My PhD life just started, only a few weeks so far, but I already feel stressed out. I found myself a lot problems, things like:

1. English difficulties. I am not native english speaking though I meet university's requirement. when reading the papers, I have to use dictionary. Have to spend hours to understand a paper.

2. No idea with my research field. I have started reading
the papers relative to my field. But after finished reading, I forgot the context so fast, sometimes have to reread over several times.

3. Fed up with the boring papers. some papers, I spent hours on it and still got no idea at all.

4. Stress from peers. Most of them from native english speaking with no english difficulties, plus so hard working. seems they are ok with this study.


MY GOD. I start to consider my ability of study, whether i am not ready for a phd. or this is common in the first year. anyone helps me? :-(