I have decided to leave but not sure whether to put my degree on hold. The reason I am finding it so hard to give it up is that it's C (not typing the university name because i dont want it to come up in google search, but it's the top university in this country at the moment). And I was awarded a prestigious scholarship to attend this place. And it's making me so miserable to have to give this up; on the other hand, the amount of stress this degree has provided me is just crazy. And a part of me wants to leave this behind.

Also how would I show this on my CV? I dont want a two year gap.

I am so so stressed. I feel like I have messed everything up and ruined everything.

That makes a lot of sense. I don't think that at this point failing will help me in any way. I have always been very academic and I have found it frustrating to struggle and this degree is not a reflection of my potential. And you're right, I have medical reasons to leave. My university annoyingly only grants 'pass' (60) or 'distinction' (70 and above) so I run a real risk of failing because I can't concentrate and my symptoms make it so difficult to do anything for extended periods. Thank you.

Quick background:

Undergrad: High distinction in history, graduated top of class from a mid-tier UK university

Master's:

Tuition fee funded master's at a top UK university. My course was completely not what I expected (the papers I wanted to sit were discontinued the year I joined), I had a very difficult time, developed depression and had other symptoms. I couldn't sit my final exams, left for two terms and now I am back for my exams. In the period I was away was diagnosed with MS (multiple sclerosis) and I have depression, which has worsened since I have come back because I need to deal with everything alone and I am so exhausted. And my GP isn't helpful. I want to go home because I am finding it very hard to deal with things on my own.

I don't see the value in this degree because I want to work in a completely different sector when I am done (I have a year-long research internship ahead of me that I can do from home) and I just want to get home, meet my specialist and learn to deal with my condition better. I live in another country and have access to private healthcare and can go back to my specialist. Also, I wish to apply to the US for further studies in a different subject (related to my research internship).

Should I leave? I am massively underprepared, feel ill all the time and fatigued, and my depression and MS symptoms keep getting worse.