Quote From satchi:
hi Drwo8ea, which field of masters are you doing? Is it MBA?
No, it's bioinformatics. It's meant to be a very promising area workwise but seems like if you don't go into a PhD you're on your own, at least with my uni.
I live with my boyfriend, that's why I moved away. He pays all the bills. We eat at home. If I really need a dress, for example, I only buy from a sale, and he pays for it. There is enough to survive as long as I don't go crazy and buy things like cosmetics etc., but really no spare money for me (or him!) to use. He also has car instalments to pay, MOT etc.
I feel you. I don't live with my boyfriend, he lives - literally- on the other side of the country but I took a loan to cover my fees and he covers everything else. We made the decision together because we were both stuck at dead-end jobs and we hated the town where we lived, so something had to change.
When I was doing my 1st degree, I always wanted good CGPA. I thought, if I have more than 3.5 I will be happy. I got into the honours list, and I had a good CGPA. But I wasn't happy. Then I thought I would do a masters--and I got a full scholarship to do it, I passed with all As. But when I held the Masters degree paper (the certificate) in my hand, I still didn't feel happy. I don't know why. Still not happy. Then I did a phd--and today I am still not happy. I have learnt (for me) that this has not led to any happiness in me at all!
What I should have realised long ago--was that I could have been happy with myself without even going to university. It took me so so so so so long to realise this.
That is a really brave thing to admit. I think I just started realizing this now. I got 2 scholarships to study fashion design but I dropped them to study science, cause my mother put in my head that I wouldn't get a job if I studied fashion. The irony.. I studied science and look where that left me.
Have you considered forgetting about academia and doing something you really enjoy? I came to learn in life that if you love what you do and you're good at it, you can make it into whatever you like; you'll always have work and won't feel like work. I'm considering other options. Life is short to waste it away just for a title so you can be constantly unhappy and feel inadequate (that's what senior academics make me feel like).
