Thanks Squiggles,
I am just feeling like I am not cut out for this anymore. Maybe if things had been smoother in the first few months it would have been ok, but now I feel like I can no longer do this. I don't know if I have got it in me to turn it around.

Apologies for bad grammar, I had to cut it short to fit it into 200 words.

I am 8 months into PhD, I’ve always been a hard worker so got my head down and got lots done in the beginning.
But then I had to wait ages for ethics because of playground politics (the group don’t like my supervisor).
I became really depressed and demotivated.
It seemed like my supervisor didn’t care and now I know why because he is leaving. This made sense as to why I had been ignored to get in such a mess.
He finally helped me come up with a defined project idea/question and outlined a potential new supervisor, who, out of all the group, is the only one I could bare to work with because the others are very rude and unsupportive.

Anyway, I still feel this immense lack of motivation, I feel so down. If I leave I am worried if they ask for the last BBSRC 3monthly grant back (only got paid a month ago). What's going to happen to me? I have been working hard toward this for what feels forever, I define myself by this and it's all gone wrong. I don't know what the best to do is to make myself happy....
Advice much appreciated.

It's so weird to know that there are people that feel the same as me. Despair - what you wrote sounds exactly like me.
I am so low at the moment because I am 8 months into my PhD and have done hardly anything, at first I was all excited but now I just feel so demotivated. I am thinking of quitting but don't know if I have to pay my funding back cos just got paid the beginning of May... :(
I need help

What does your supervisor say?

Thank you so much for your messages, especially the last one!
I am so worried and in the middle of my MSc which I feel is pretty intense and if the next 4 years are going to be like this then I think I might cry!!!
Hopefully I'll be ok though - I wouldn't say I was the brainiest person but I work hard and am very enthusiastic and motivated.

I am due to start in October, what should I expect in the first few months? I know I shouldn't be thinking about this now as I am still doing my MSc.

Yey! I am so chuffed especially as what I am going to be studying is going to be amazing, but also scared... reading some of the comments reminds me how hard it's going to be - especially as I have worked so hard so far to get where I am and it hasn't come naturally...
Should I be worried?