prospective to current - getting closer :-)

J

lol. so when do i change myself from prospective to current PhD i ask myself :-) 1st jan? yes :-) dont know whether to smile :-) or be worried :-(
i think this best suits me :-O a nerve wracking feeling. trepidation, and afraid - yes. scared. worried about finances. didnt think about it before but now worried about how il pay my rent and look after my teens. started feeling scared as just found out that being a full time student means im gonna lose a lot of help i counted on before eg paying my rent. have thought -God! what am i doing here. yes im scared but i refuse to let this beat me. almost thought of backing out and doing it in a few years as the financial mess has only just sunk in a week ago but im going ahead with all the hassles thrown at me. i just pray i wade through it all without sinking. will ask help from the uni on finances. pray for me everyone xx

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