Not been at it for to long, a few months now. It feels that I am doing lots of nothing productive - am willing to put in the time but struggling to get in depth, feel like I am still on the surface. Not put anything worth while on paper yet, though have tried. I want to feel more involved, any advice?

After a few months it is totally normal to feel this way.. Even after 18 months I sometimes feel like I am getting nowhere lol.. I am sure you are doing better than you think, just keep at it

Exactly so. I am also a few months in (four months) and i had it bad a few weeks ago- feeling like i had no idea what i was doing. I felt like i did not know anything! At the moment things are not too bad but are going really well but i still do not know a great deal.

This is the norm and is totally acceptable. With time things will change.