Rejected.

Unsuccessful.

The LoD arrived this morning and I got my Mum to open it over the phone. I could tell from her description that it wasn't good news and I just wanted to know. I feel numb right now. I had a little cry on my lunchbreak and now I seem to be taking it fairly well - I mean, me and 70% over the applicants right? It's sad because given the type of study I am applying for - that which helps others in the community (homeless people, the elderly, the disabled, children, refugees etc) - I feel that I had quite a good case. But who knows how many others applied with the same course? It could come down to many many things, not least things like references which I ultimately have no control over. I think I knew all along this would be the result. I got a grade 4, so not even close.

I guess for me now it's research into other options, loans and potentially getting a part-time job. I am still going ahead with the Masters because (maybe foolishly) I believe I CAN make a difference and use theatre to improve the lives of others.

Does anyone know where I can find a list of other sources? I know someone on the AHFF has compiled a list.

Thanks for the support everyone, it has meant a lot. Good luck to all those who are waiting to hear xxx

Congratulations GoingNuts!!! I am so thrilled for you, this good news is totally inspiriring!!

How many of us are left now? Is it just moi? :-)

Pallas, I forgot to congratulate you! I am so pleased for you! :-)

Stressed, it's awful isn't it? Especially when in all likelihood it will be a rejection - so to wait this long for bad news is so draining. Mentally and now physically as I am exhausted! But still - it's got to come at some point.

STILL nothing my end. Really very bored by the whole circus now. Still, where there's life there's hope.

The most annoying thing of all happened today - we didn't actually get ANY post, so I've waited all morning to hear nowt. A little part of me expected to hear something today... but no. It's going to be a loooong weekend.

Congratulations Lucia! Excellent news! And I am sorry wanwan, I am glad you have other options but I know it's still disappointing. xx

Hehe, and now you know who I am too! The rather over-eager poster below you!

Is it back for you yet Stressed? I can access it at the moment. Just saw on Facebook that another panel 7 person has heard good news. I feel all funny now!

CONGRATS!!! That's fantastic news! I am so pleased it's worked out for you!!

EEK - and this now means the panel 7s are coming!!!

I think you can quite easily guess who I am on Facebook ;-)

Postman hasn't been yet today - I have the usual morning nerves at the moment. I'm going away for the weekend so if it arrives tomorrow I won't read it until Monday night. I'm keeping everything crossed!

Hehe, Yes I'm playing that game too! Especially fun when people have a different name for each forum! I'm only on here and Facebook though.

White eh? Eeek! A white letter has arrived for me today but there's no AHRC stamp on it - which I take to be a good sign!

Over on Facebook I've finally heard of a successful PPM candidate! I hope that means the ball is rolling and I'll hear SOMETHING soon. For those who have received the envelope of ambiguity - what colour is it? I know that's a random question but somehow I imagine it's brown.

Hi ladies and gents, it's my first time back here in a few days. I still haven't heard anything but I think I'm slowly learning to let it go. I got sent home from work a few days ago because I was in such a state. Physically and mentally I am feeling exhausted. I put things into perspective yesterday and have come to realise that all I can do is hold on - and whilst I'm holding on, investigate other options. I might as well put this time to good use! :-)

Thanks for being so lovely and supportive - having a place to come a vent means a lot. None of my friends or family understand, the standard answer is usually "try not to worry". Well yes, of course, but that's easier said than done!!

I hope we have some good news today (up)

I might have said the wrong thing. I said I had a question about my PPM application and they asked me which university I'm applying for. Then I was put through to someone who told me that they wouldn't give any information out, except that I should get it by next Friday. Maybe I should have asked the person who answered outright.

I could cry. I am so frustrated. I think I have finally reached the end of my tether.

Called them - didn't get the same response as you guys. Was told they can't tell me over the phone but I should hear by the end of next week.

:-(

I feel even worse now.

I'm scared that they'll deny they've even had a application from me! I know I'll be one of the last - I always am! Such is my luck ;)