Hello, I am a student currently on an AHRC funded PhD, but I am having my anxieties about whether the topic/period of my life is right for me. I have only been doing it for a few months, but I am being prescribed anti-depressants. I have gone straight through from BA, MA to PhD without a pause, and I am concerned that I might be unable to produce something worthwhile, I am also afraid that going into the particular field which this thesis prepares me for, at the particular institution at which I am studying, will close more doors in my future career than it will open. I apologise for having rambled but I've not yet found a place where I can speak openly up until now. Ultimately my question is about getting funding from the same body twice, because I cannot leave my field, Literature, but am afraid that the particular area I chose to specialise in, which was specified in the funding opportunity, is not where I want to be. But if it is impossible for the AHRC to fund someone twice then I have no choice but to persist.

I understand that compared to some of the people who have posted on here, my depression seems a petty issue, and I apologise for that, but I would like to get an idea of the logistics of my situation if at all possible.

Thank you very much.