I am sorry I am uk so don't understand this but I hope someone comes soon to help x

Nobody can make you sign. You need proper advice. Go to your university student services representative or head of school. I hope you are ok.

I knew from your writing that it was racism, I didn't want to say. I can imagine the situation exactly and I am sorry it is shit. Do you have student services there? Or counsellor as above. Do you have a visa for ur phd?

Look longer term and take each day at a time. I am concerned that you are depressed-there is hope to find another opportunity. I do hope you are ok.

others are constantly thinking. I would take this time to have some therapy or counselling to work on your experience at uni, but also the underlying beliefs about yourself. You are special as you are.

It really doesn't matter what people think. You have said many times that everyone other than your supervisor things you are amazing. I am sure you are but your focus should be on your research, not what

I think you need to work on why you need to be brilliant and memorised? You keep posting threads on the same thing and are struggling with the need to be noticed and accepted.

No, thank you. We meet on Monday. I think I may feel better once I'm back, it is the waiting around which is the worst part. I may email them though thank you.

I am ten years older than you and doing a PhD, it isn't too late. x

I think you need to focus on your mental health first OP. You have not failed. You have done so much already, you have achieved, you are not a failure. Just keep on keeping on and all will be ok x

Gosh I am so sorry. I have no words to help you, but hope that someone else comes to give you some advice. Please keep going, you sound incredibly passionate. Good luck for the future.

Still not looking forward to start of term. I go back on Monday and dreading it, can't seem to get into it at all. I hope my motivation picks up.

Thanks. I do think the PhD went against me in the interview. People want REAL experience not just intelligence and knowledge of theory. I'm starting volunteering then if it comes again I have a chance x

Well I thought I would let you know I am going to stick with the PhD. Too good an opportunity to miss. And manage my depression and seek support. Thanks so much x

My friend did this and got a total rewrite which gave her an extra year after the Viva. Could you do this? I would try to get through the next 6 months. Could you take a short break to get some energy together?